원래는 콘서트가 끝나고 바로 글을 쓰겠다는 마음이었는데, 제 삶

원래는 콘서트가 끝나고 바로 글을 쓰겠다는 마음이었는데, 제 삶에 있어 너무나 컸던 순간이라 감정의 잔여물을 가라앉히는 데에 조금 시간이 걸렸어요. 혹시 기다리셨다면 미안하다는 말부터 전합니다.

누군가의 앞에서 눈물을 훔치는 정도가 아닌, '울어본' 적은 꽤나 오래 되었던 것 같습니다. 어느 순간부터 울고 싶어도 잘 울어지지가 않아요. 그래서 많이 답답하고 스스로 안타깝기도 했었어요. 그만큼이나 이 이틀간은 저에게 극적인 순간이었다는 것을 꼭 말씀드리고 싶었어요.

참.. 그저 감사할 뿐입니다. 데뷔할 때 히든트랙에서 읊조렸듯이 저는 조그만 바람에도 하루에 수백번씩 나의 바다와 사막을 오갑니다. 많이 강해졌다며, 나아졌다며 스스로를 믿고 의지하려 해도 나의 마음과 상관없이 훅 무너져버리는 많은 순간들은 지금도 어쩌기가 어려워요. 아직도 많이 두렵고요. 많은 당신들도 그렇겠죠? 세상에 두려운 걸 '두렵다'고 똑바로 말하는 일보다 어려운 일은 없을 거에요. 그래도 이제는 제 옆에, 뒤에 많은 분들이 계신다는 걸 조금은 알았어요. 저도 앞으로 당신이 무너질 때 손 내밀어 잡아주고 싶다는 생각을 몇 번이나 고쳐 하게 되었어요.

절망, 위로, 희망, 방황.. 남극의 크레바스 같은 많은 감정과 생각의 틈바구니 사이에서. 아직은 들려드릴 수 없는 많은 노래들을 작업실에서 혼자 만들고 있어요. 절대로 가볍지 않고, 너무 깊은 제 안의 것들이라 만들면서 저도 문득문득 너무나 과몰입 될 때가 있어요. 지나친 자기연민은 위험하다지만, 또 언젠가 후회할지도 모르겠지만, 지금만큼은 나에게 더 강한 확신을 주고 싶다는 생각을 해요.

이제 너무 많은 분들이 저를 지켜주시는 만큼, 한 순간, 말의 한 끝 감정의 한 올도 허투루 그냥 보내고 싶지는 않아요. 돌이켜보면 제가 제 힘듦에 못 이겨 그냥 흘려보냈던 기억들이 너무 많은 것 같아요. 더 성숙하고 신중한 멋진, 더 나은 어른이 되고 싶어요. 단순히 공연을 넘어, 이번 콘서트는 저에게 그런 이런저런 다짐과 마음을 갖게 했습니다.

제 몸의 면적이 체조경기장만큼 커다랗진 못했지만, 저의 목소리는 그랬길 바라며. 나름 보이지 않는 그림자진 곳까지 구석구석 제 얼굴을 비추려 애썼는데 부디 최대한 많은 분들이 제 표정과 진심을 보아주셨길 바랄 뿐입니다. 그러면 그거만큼 행운도 없겠죠. 저는 지금도 진심으로 너무 행운이라고 생각해요. 이 행운을 나누어야 한다고 생각하고요. 많은 것들에 감사하고, 더 신중하며, 더 멋진 것들을 보여드리고 싶습니다.

언젠가 이 콘서트에서 제가 흘린 눈물보다, 더 깊은 제 음표와 울림을 여러분이 꼭 듣게 되는 순간이 왔으면 좋겠습니다. 그 때까지 제 머리도 많이 아플 거고, 용기도 많이 필요하겠지만요. 저는 그래도 꾸역꾸역 열심히 나아가겠습니다.
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한낮이지만 지금 제가 있는 이 곳은 비가 옵니다. 5월에도 어딘가 겨울의 냄새가 있습니다. 아직은 그 더운 무대의 채 가시지 않은 여운이 당신의 마음속에도 따뜻히 숨쉬고 있길 바랄 뿐입니다.

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結果 (英文) 1:

After the concert had written the original writing was, in my mind, the right to life's big moments of emotional residue, so having a holding in La a little time. If you've ever had to wait since the end of sorry.To the extent that not to steal someone's tears in front of, ' cry ' less there seems to be quite old. From the moment I want to cry and cry, which do not support well. So much they've antaggabgi themselves too. That or two to me just to say that it was a dramatic moment when wanted.True ... just be thankful as well. Debut when the hidden track, as I'm a little wind from even Joe cite was hundreds of times a day I go to the sea and the desert of the o. Much stronger and better and tried to rely on themselves, even if my mind and no matter what there many moments are still throwing the hook falling hard. Still very much awesome. Many of you would too? OMG Awesome girl ' awesome ' and straight talking, I'm going to be more difficult. Though now my next, followed by many people who knew a little bit of that. I look forward to when you want to hold my hand and push the thoughts come many times to fix it.In desperation, hope, wandering up. .. Antarctic crevasse among the many emotions and thoughts as he took of. Yet we can not create a lot of songs I'm alone in a Studio. Never light, so deep inside my things so suddenly and suddenly I'm in La makes when immersed. Excessive self-pity is dangerous, but also one day regret, but now as I want to give a stronger confidence to think of.Now that so many of you watched me as I say, for a moment, giving one end of emotions come also huh pasila just want to spend. In retrospect, I can't stream, the weaker the force spent just won so many memories, I guess. More mature and prudent cool, I want to be a better adult. This concert, beyond simply show me that dajimgwa mind game.My body did not gymnastics arena, as long as all the area, and that was my voice. Up until my face where the unseen shadowy non-cull exp please as many minutes had my wish as well as facial expressions and are very serious. Then that's as much as luck. I still think that deeply too lucky. I think I should have this luck. Thanks to a lot of things, more cautious, and more cool things I'd like to show you.The tears I shed in this concert one day more, deeper in my notes and the moment when you just hear echoes. Until then my head would hurt a lot, and I'll need a lot of courage. I'm still working hard, you'll go further station station. Please believe me please a bit moreThe middle of the day, but now I have this place in the rain. Even the smell of the winter somewhere in May. Yet he is not less than the danger of the hot stage, even your heart warm afterglow Hebrews would want breathing as well.Thank you very much

結果 (英文) 2:

Originally the concert was over was a heart getdaneun write an article directly, it took a little time to calming the too big a moment as the residue of emotions in your life. If you have to wait before it ever since the end of that sorry. Someone's stealing, not much in front of tears, 'cried the' old seems quite small. At one moment, crying, crying wants to do is not good. So much frustrated and Pulls antakkapgido themselves. This is two days or so just like I wanted to say that it was a dramatic moment for me. Indeed ... it is only just to thank you. When his debut as toned waited in the hidden track, I go oh my desert by the sea and the wind can be a hundred times a day, even a little. He said was much stronger, much has been said difficult moments are still eojjeogi ll hook collapsed without even trying to rely on my heart to believe in yourself and do better. I still fear a lot. Many of you would also yes? Fearful world that 'I am afraid' he'll never work harder than talking things straight. But now I knew a little bit gyesinda are a lot of people behind the next. When you fall forward, it helped many times to fix the idea want to reach out to hold hands despair over hope, wandering between .. teumbaguni many of the same feelings and thoughts crevasse in Antarctica. I'm making myself still a lot of songs that we can hear in the studio. Never without lighter, as you can sometimes making too deep in the stuff I suddenly become so suddenly and commitment. Excessive self-pity but dangerous, I do not know yet sometime map regret, I think me as much now want to give a stronger conviction. Now, so many people by giving watched me, for a moment, the end of one year of the feelings of the end I do not want to spend even just heoturu. In retrospect, I think I remember they did not win just spent too much flow to the himdeulm. More mature and prudent nice, I want to be a better man. Than just a show, this concert was to have committed such and such and such a mind for me. I did my ratjin keoda as the area of the body, gymnastics arena, hoping my voice did way. See Figure own place voluntarily wrote a non-culled from every corner of my face trying by all means do not just expect way as many people have seen my face and gave me heart. That would not even lucky enough then. I think it is still too sincere good luck. I wo believe that share the luck. Thanks to many things, and be more careful, and I would like to show you more cool things. I hope someday, my notes and deeper sound than the tears I shed at the concert stoked the moment that you have just heard. Gonna hurt my head a lot until then, but I also need a lot of courage. But I'll move kkuyeok kkuyeok hard. Please trust me a little more free , but I now midday a place where the rain comes. Somewhere in May there is the smell of winter. Still two lingering afterglow of the hot stage that is just resting warm and breathable sokedo would want your heart. I really appreciate it