Hanover, New HampshireEdward left me to sleep alone in my hotel room, which only meant I couldn't sleep at all.The unfamiliar shadows in the room kept me on edge as my mind turned over and over all that had happened.Edward wanted to get married.Right away.If I was being honest, I didn't care if we were married or not.My mind wandered occasionally to the dream of a small wedding with family and friends smiling on us, but I knew any wedding right now would have the opposite effect.On the other hand, other people's reactions were no good reason not to get married.Even my dad's likely atomic explosion of a reaction couldn't actually stop us.Then there were the practical considerations Edward found easy to put off.We hadn't discussed yet how getting married would affect us financially.And living off campus meant paying out of pocket for everything we'd need to survive.I knew Edward was more than willing to use his college fund to that end, but whether his parents would be supportive was another story.I didn't know how much Edward had shared with them.After making a long mental list of issues to raise with Edward, I finally fell asleep.We took it easy the next day.In the morning, we explored the campus more, getting an idea of the available housing areas and the buildings we would have classes in.After lunch, Esme let us wander the town alone.Edward and I ended up in an ice cream parlor talking over a shared sundae."Will you tell me what you've been thinking?"Edward asked."I don't want to rush you, but...the suspense is killing me.I want to be able to talk about it."I nodded."I want to talk about it, too.And...well, I'm worried that us being married is going to cause problems.I mean, how is it going to affect financial aid and stuff like that?Will we even be able to afford to be married?""I've actually looked into that already," Edward told me with only a trace of self-satisfaction."So, while we're still unmarried, we file for financial aid as members of our parents' households, but when we file next year, we'll be our own household.They'll have to go by our combined income, which won't be much.You should have you full needs met no matter what, but I'll actually get more financial aid if we're married, and we'll be able to use more of my college fund for living expenses."I bit my lip."Edward...do your parents know what we're considering?Will they be cool with all this?"A light pink flush spread over his cheekbones."I actually had to ask my mom for the ring.When I first brought it up, I freaked her out a little, and my dad too, but they made me really think about it before I did anything.And when I told them I was sure I wanted to marry you, they made me promise that you and I would talk about it rationally – like we're doing now."I fingered the ring that I currently had hidden away in my pocket."Does she know you proposed yesterday?"He nodded."I had to tell her last night.I couldn't stand it.""She didn't say anything this morning," I observed, and I wondered if I should be worried.She'd been totally normal with me."She knows you needed time to think things through," he said."She respects you for that, you know."I took the ring out of my pocket and inspected it anew."So I could wear it now?And she wouldn't be surprised?"Edward grinned."Yeah, you can wear it.You can wear it all you want," he said pointedly.I slid it onto the appropriate finger and considered it, the unfamiliar weight on my hand.It could have felt cumbersome, but instead it felt...grounding.Comforting."I want to marry you," I admitted."I want to get the apartment and sleep next to you every night and remind you to put the toilet seat down.""I always put the toilet seat down," Edward interjected defensively."But," I went on, "I really want my parents to approve of my choices, too.And my parents...had a really unsuccessful marriage.They got married fresh out of high school, and my mom left and I think my dad's still heartbroken.And even though I'm not as close to my mom as I used to be, I know she doesn't approve of marrying young."Edward drummed his fingers pensively on the table."Bella, your parents love you.They're just afraid of letting you make their mistakes because they think you'll have the same result.But we're not your parents.I know every young couple like us thinks they're different, but...I think we're both determined enough to make this work and get through the rough patches.We just need to convince them.""Easier said than done," I sighed."But maybe that's the sacrifice I have to make.That's what relationships are about, right?Sacrifice and compromise?"Edward offered a half-smile."I don't want you to have to sacrifice anything.Maybe I can talk to your dad when we go back?I don't have to tell him I already asked you.I could just...feel him out."My return expression was skeptical."You
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